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Benjamin Walker Tay ★
2nd July 1991
NYP - SIT
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Thursday, March 25, 2010
Hey readers :) This is kind of a continuation from the previous post so try to catch up :)
At randall's house that day, i stayed up till 6am to assure myself such that he doesnt wake up at 1-2 hour intervals and realise that he's all alone... So i stayed up and assured myself that he could at least fall asleep till i wake up so that he won't think too much.... And thank God i did that coz in the middle of like 4-5am, he woke up and he was like wondering why am i still awake... I told him why, and we just started talking again... I talked to him until my mouth was dry sia... It was really hard to see him like this.. A couple of times i wanted to tear ler... Coz its really heart breaking to see my own brother like this...
Talking to randall made me feel emo as well... coz it also made me remember my past relationship and i had to use it as an example to persuade randall to let go.... plus at that time, about few more hours and the exam results would be out... so it was like super mixed feelings....
Anyways, on tuesday itself, my results came out. I was contented with the results, after what i've been through during the study and exam period... Coz i crashed and burned pretty badly... So having this results even when i crashed and burned was really not so bad...
Here are my results :
ITIPJ - A
Comm Skills 2 - A
Java - B
DCN - B
Marketing - B
C-Maths - C+
IADEV - C
Total GPA = 3.050
To me, i'm really okay with it i guess ? :) I'll just have to work harder next semester. :)
Randall's gpa was 3.6 but it didnt make him feel any better... He even wanted to trade it with my gpa coz it would have made me happy and he didnt really care what was his gpa at that moment of time.. He even said if he gotten a 1.0 or whatever, he wouldnt even care... He just wanted to have "her" back.... Haiz.... I really hope he'll be able to get a good sleep before his body breaks down on him..... This is the first time ever, that i've seen him so worn down physically...
Eyebags + ( cough + phlegm ) + haggard looking + wheezing = Pathetic
Randall really looked so down and out, and pathetic... And all i could do is just be there for him.. It kinda made me feel useless coz i wasnt able to talk him round... But i knew that just being there for him like this made him happy in a way, and this is what brothers are for. :)
For wednesday, there was POS training !! :) I'm glad i was finally going for training :)
POS training was kinda tough i guess ? I'm having slight muscle aches now... Plus i kena hit by the knee into my eye -.-ll Coz of that split second of not concentrating, when i looked back to my point where i was suppose to concentrate at, i kena hit liao... -.-ll
But still, training was fun !! :) I got to know more people, plus i finally understood what willie meant when he said "It's not as easy as holding your girlfriend's waist."
Coz to me, it was like kinda inappropriate to hold the girl's waist... So i held on like some crab like that.... But the girl didnt really say anything at first... But the person-in-charge was like dont hold like that... must hold firm so that the flyer got security.... Then i was like, but it's so inappropriate.... Then the person-in-charge was like, this is cheer leading... Safety comes first and etc... So i had no choice but to just hold firmly as told to.... Then the girl said "Ahh !! Much better than just now" But really... It's not easy..... Especially when doing the stunts... Coz im more scared of the flyer's safety than mine... And my shoulder kept shaking when the flyer was standing on it.... So its really nervous for me, as well as showing me that my shoulder is weak coz i was shaking -.-ll
So after training, we headed to clementi for supper ? But i was still hungry... :( And there was like no small snacks or something nearby to buy... So i had no choice but to live with it...
Most of us took mrt, then me willie and xiu zhen took bus :)
Willie took 106 while me and xiu zhen took 154 home :)
Xiu zhen is friendly :) First time actually talking to her, and my second or third time seeing her and it was kinda not so awkward for me... As most of you all know, im really shy among new faces.. especially girls... So, this shows im slowly breaking through in this area i think ? :X
But she was really nice to smile and etc, which made me feel more confident in talking to her :) Girls should be more friendly like her :X BUT !! She thinks i look like a kid -.-ll And she thought i was phil's age...... Only when she realised that im from NYP then she was like oh.... :(
HAIZ !! D:
Anyways, i guess that's all for today's post ? :)
I cant wait for combined cg tomorrow !! :)
Bye Readers ~